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Safe from the fowler's snare!

I have that hollow feeling in the pit of my stomach. I feel like I am about to get trapped and I hate the feeling. I have been ready a while for my next level, and just when I am getting ready to step into it, here comes an obstacle. But what are you oh Mighty Mountain? Before me you shall become a plain!

Psalm 31:4
Free me from the trap that is set for me, for you are my refuge.

Psalm 140:5
Proud men have hidden a snare for me; they have spread out the cords of their net and have set traps for me along my path.

Psalm 141:9
Keep me from the snares they have laid for me, from the traps set by evildoers.

Psalm 91

1 Those who live in the shelter of the Most High
will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
2 This I declare about the Lord:
He alone is my refuge, my place of safety;
he is my God, and I trust him.
3 For he will rescue you from every trap
and protect you from deadly disease.
4 He will cover you with his feathers.
He will shelter you with his wings.
His faithful promises are your armor and protection

What is the meaning of all this?

I am weary. Worn out from getting up day after day chasing... something. I seem to have lost my sense of purpose and with it the desire to come to work. All I want to do is go home and sleep for a week. Then go to the coast and lay on the beach for another week. Then figure out why in the world I am not a housewife and what the meaning of this life is... again.

Hidden Treasure

This year has started off strange for me. I have such an intense desire to leave this job and move on to my next place. I also have a great desire to go to school. I have identified Regent University as the place for me. I want to see everything in light of God's word because that is the only way we can bring social reform in our countries. By the word of God.

As such I am a bit frustrated because I want things to move along faster than they are right now. Not likely to happen. I just have to understand that God is sovereign and that his time is always the best.

Today in my morning devotion I read Mathew 13:44-46 about the treasure.

Parables of the Hidden Treasure and the Pearl

44 “The Kingdom of Heaven is like a treasure that a man discovered hidden in a field. In his excitement, he hid it again and sold everything he owned to get enough money to buy the field.

45 “Again, the Kingdom of Heaven is like a merchant on the lookout for choice pearls. 46 When he discovered a pearl of great value, he sold everything he owned and bought it!

God asked me a very strange and difficult question. He said to me, "If you had to choose between going to do your masters and getting married, which one would you take?" If you knew me in the past, you would know for sure that I would take the education over the marriage. However, today I found myself answering differently. I said to my Lord, I will choose the marriage over the education and great career path. In that instant I knew that my mind had been renewed by his word in the area of marriage.

How much would I be willing to give up to have a good marriage ordained by God? Would I be willing to forfeit all else (that would work against the marriage) and all others? I have never been ready to say yes before. I have always put career and education above all else. But not today. Not ever again. My seasons have changed!!

I would treat marriage like the pearl of great price, like the field in which there is hidden treasure. Because in it is hidden treasure. I get to fulfill my original purpose of helper and to bear godly offspring for my king. Is there any greater purpose than that? Blessed be the Lord my God, who this day has renewed my mind and changed my life for the glory of his name.