I want to know you

I had an interesting dream Saturday night. I was in church and I was trying to get a seat very close to the front about the 4 - 5th row. I wanted to hear and see the pastor and get everything he had to say. I felt that the closest I could get was the 4th -5th row. In the next scene we were worshiping and we were singing this song:

Nataka Nikujue (I want to know you)
Nikufahamu Bwana (To acquaint myself with you)
Nafsi Yangu ya tamani (My spirit longs for you)
Nataka nikujue ( I want to know you)

I woke up with that song in my mind and heart and my spirit was yearning for God. I began to pray about that dream and to tell God just how much I desire him when he brought a picture of the woman with the Alabaster box from Luke 7. I could see her weeping at his feet, kissing them, wiping them with her hair, and massaging them with perfumed oil of great worth. As I prayed about what God was showing me, he revealed to me that I have never felt free enough in his presence to touch him like she did.

Many times when I am praying, I imagine God sitting on his throne and many times I have seen myself kneeling before him, and even sitting in his lap, but I have never seen myself adoring him unashamedly like this woman. Just touching him and loving him.

For some reason, I began to see his feet, with the holes in them. And he was inviting me to touch them. To put my finger in the hole like Thomas did. And then I could see the cross and Jesus hanging there. There was an invite saying "Come and touch me. Put your finger in the holes where I was pierced for your transgressions. Touch my back where I was whipped for your healing. See how I hang on a cross in my underwear, scorning the shame and the curse of hanging on a tree, just so you would never suffer shame, so you would be blessed and not cursed."

For the first time I touched him, and I kissed his pierced feet. I know that there is more revelation here. I want to know what the cross was about. I know I am redeemed, but I want to know the WHOLE SIGNIFICANCE OF THE CROSS!!! There is so much I don't know. When I take communion I want to truly discern the body of Christ that was broken for me. That is my hearts desire. To know what was purchased for me on Calvary. All of it.

Revelation come! Eyes, be enlightened! Ears, hear what the Spirit is saying to the church! Lord, I want to know you!