He Rides Across the Heavens

There is no one like the God of Israel. He rides across the heavens to help you, across the skies in majestic splendor. The eternal God is your refuge, and his everlasting arms are under you.

Deuteronomy 33:26-27 NLT

BOLDNESS

Sometimes I find myself dreading to make a call and solicit a client. If I send out an email or a letter, I find that I am afraid to follow up, and sometimes I give up on it. How many clients have I lost this way? Today the Lord revealed to me that I am a coward and really the motivator behind these actions is fear. Fear is not of God! It is specially designed in hell to paralyze us so that we are unable to take dominion. The following verses in Joshua 1 blessed my heart and caused me to vow with the help of the Holy Spirit to become bolder. To pursue hard after my clients and to take possession of the Land!

Joshua 1:3-9

"I will give you every place where you set your foot, as I promised Moses...No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Be strong and courageous... Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."

So boldness is a function of knowing that God is with you wherever you go, whatever you do. Now that I think about it who wouldn't be with the Almighty God backing them up. Boldness is not a suggestion, it is a COMMAND! Not being bold and courageous is really holding God in contempt. You are really saying "Lord, I don't know if you can handle this one". I repent Lord.

The Bible says in Proverbs 28:1 that "...the righteous are bold as a lion." and you are the righteousness of God in Christ, the word says that he gave him who had no sin, that we may become the righteousness of God. Be Bold!

I pray that this blog gives you the boldness to do whatever God has called you to do. He is backing you up. Be bold as a lion!

Resist the Urge!

As I had said on an earlier blog, it never ceases to amaze me how I can take something absolutely wonderful and turn it into an utter nightmare. In the months of March and April I was working out like I had never done before. I was doing everything that I needed to be doing but I was not loosing weight. It bothered me that I was not shaking the plateau, but they said change the excercises so I did. That shook off two pounds and then I stagnated again. Now I was working out in the AM and in the PM and still nothing. I should have been loosing weight like crazy based on the Math, but nothing was happening. So finally I cried out to God about it and he answered me. He said I was doing things in the flesh and had stepped away from what he had told me to do.

So I went back to the original Jesus plan. Eat when you are hungry (true stomach hunger) and stop when you are satisfied. That was 13 days ago. Since then, I have shed 8 pounds effortlessly. I am smaller now than I have been in years!!! I am so blessed!

I find that my greatest challenge has been to wait for true stomach hunger before I can eat. Most of the time, I just want the taste of something in my mouth, other times I just want to eat because I am stressed and other times, like now, I just want to eat coz I can! That is the "lust of the flesh" I should not just feed my body because I want to eat.

Ok,let me say it again for those who think it is ok to eat just because the food is there and you can. THE LUST OF THE FLESH INCLUDES EATING NOT BECAUSE YOU ARE HUNGRY BUT BECAUSE YOU FEEL LIKE IT! Yeah! Talk about taking the wind out of my sails! I am blessed, however, that God does give us a way out of every trial and struggle and this morning he said in James 4:7 "Submit yourselves then to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you." So now when I am struggling to wait for true stomach hunger I submit myself to God and in the name of Jesus I resist the lust of the flesh.

As I continue I am sure that I will see great progress and will be able to share it with you.

For resources on God's way of losing weight please visit www.thinwithin.org

LET MY PEOPLE GO!!!

California has passed the law and will now allow and recognize same sex marriages. The Mayor of San Francisco (The gay capital of America) had this to say about it:

"It's about human dignity. It's about human rights. It's about time in California," San Francisco Mayor Gavin Newsom, pumping his fist in the air, told a roaring crowd at City Hall. "As California goes, so goes the rest of the nation. It's inevitable. This door's wide open now. It's going to happen, whether you like it or not."

Matt 24 says that wickedness will greatly increase, but we are here to snatch them out of the fire, hating even the clothes on their bodies that are defiled by corrupted flesh (Jude 2) and we say with Moses "Let my people go that they may come and worship me" Exodus 8.

The story can be found on the link below:

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080516/ap_on_re_us/gay_marriage

Help from Zion!

Send me help from Zion O' God send me help from your holy hill. Command victory for me, for my eyes are on you. Like the eyes of a slave look to the hand of her mistress, so do I look to you O' God. Sent me help from Zion. Make haste and do not delay! For you are my present help in time of need and without you I am nothing. Some trust in horses and some in chariots but I will trust in the name of the Lord my God. Remember me from your holy hill O' God and give me the desires of my heart and make my plans succeed. My heart and my soul cry out to you. Send me help from Zion O' God! Order my steps. Guide me aright that I may not stumble and fall. Come Lord Jesus! Intervene now I pray! Do not wait another day my God lest my enemy triumph over me. Have mercy O' God, Have mercy. My heart cries out to you, my eyes look to you O' Lord for you are my very present help at this time. Make haste O' Lord, Make haste! Remember me from Zion. Seated on your throne of mercy decree my victory, speak into my future because of your great love towards me. I wait with expectation for my heart trusts in you! O Lord, listen! O Lord, forgive! O Lord, hear and act! For your sake, O my God, do not delay, because I bear your Name.

Daniel 9:23a "As soon as you began to pray, an answer was given, which I have come to tell you, for you are highly esteemed..."

Daniel 10:12 "...Since the first day that you set your mind to gain understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard, and I have come in response to them.

Help is on the way!

TODAY IN PROPHECY!!

With all the catastrophes and disasters that have been happening around the world I decided to read Matthew 24 for a feel of where we are today in Biblical prophecy. The earth is travailing and is in the early stages of child birth, but the contractions are getting stronger and faster. According a Reuters report, Natural disasters have quadrupled in the last 20 years. I believe it! I found an article on the UN website titled "Extreme weather events are part of a 'new normal' trend" The article begun like this:

"Intensive storms sweeping across Asia and the Caribbean, devastating droughts in Africa, wildfires in the southwestern US, massive flooding throughout Asia and large swathes of Africa – 2007’s global list of catastrophes read like a tired Hollywood disaster script."

And below are some statistics given:

a) In 2006, 426 disasters affected 143 million people and resulted in $35 billion in economic damage. The number of floods and related disasters was 43 per cent greater than the 2000-2004 average.

b) In South Asia, successive waves of flooding last summer affected over 60 million people, devastating lives and livelihoods for years to come.

c) Some 200 million people on the planet now live in coastal flood zones at risk from more intense storms and rising waters; in South and Southeast Asia alone, 60 million people are particularly at risk in the mega-delta regions.

d) In just one generation, the number of disasters triggered by these natural hazards has increased threefold, and losses, both direct and indirect, have increased five-fold. Rapid urbanization and rising population density, particularly in coastal mega-cities, mean more people are at risk from major disasters than ever before.

e) The health status of millions of people is projected to be affected through, for example, increases in malnutrition; with increased deaths, diseases, and injury due to extreme weather events.

f) In Africa by 2020, between 75 and 250 million people are projected to be exposed to increased water stress due to climate change.

Jesus, over 2000 years ago, predicted these difficult times that would come upon us. Matt 24:6-8 reads:

"You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. All these are the beginning of birth pains"

We hear of wars all around us, the US vs Iraq, China vs Tibet, Somalia, chad, Sudan are killing each other. Genocides and holocausts all over the place. Inter-racial, inter-tribal wars that we like calling, clashes, or skirmishes, or gang wars. Take your pick...

And yet as bad as it is this is just the beginning of birth pains. In other words Mambo Bado (You aint seen nothin yet!) the worst is yet to come. In fact Jesus says that when you see this things happening "see that you are not alarmed" why because "Such things must happen, but the end is still to come." This things must take place. They are called forth prophetically and the end is almost here. The Lord's agenda scroll is on the very last pages of his plan for humanity. He is getting ready to come back, reward the righteous and punish those that have rejected him.

Now we like to say that a loving God would never hurt humanity, and you are right. That is not the desire of his heart. But he is a just God and he has told us how to live our lives, and the consequences of not doing so. Justice must prevail.

Matt 24:12-13 "Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved." This we have already seen and continue to witness. There is so much wickedness in the world, that even the African Nations are beginning to go into it. We used to be sheltered!! I remember that when I went to university in the US at age 21 I was so innocent, so clueless. I had heard of the word lesbian but I couldn't for the life of me imagine how that worked! Well, that quickly went out the window when I found myself surrounded by lesbians everywhere. In school, in the workplace, in my neighbourhood... everywhere. Gay men were everywhere and all of a sudden, I knew how they did it too. Flipping through TV channels at 7pm I would come across pornography and all manner of other junk, I mean you were literally bombarded with all of it. I remember thinking, "I never want to raise my children in this country, in this environment."

When I finally decided to come back home to stay after 6 years in the States, one of my most comforting thoughts was "I am so glad that I don't have to look at a woman and try to figure out if she is male or female!!!" Tell you what! My bubble was burst shortly there after. Young men, gay as a two dollar bill where working at the office where I was. There is no escape from iniquity and wickedness. Not if you are still living on planet earth. It is everywhere, and multiplying like a bunch of mutated cells that just won't quit!!!

I am so glad that the Bible says that even though we are in the world we are not of it. And that we should be of good cheer because Christ has overcome the world. Hallelujah! I know that we can still have children and bring them up in the world, yet not of it. God will show us how. And above all that the people caught up in this bondage are put around us so we can be a light to them, and so we can point them in the right direction. We are getting closer and closer to the last day, we must do what Jude said to do in vs 23 "snatch others from the fire and save them; to others show mercy, mixed with fear—hating even the clothing stained by corrupted flesh." You have been put where you are to snatch them out of the fire. Snatch them!! And show them mercy, hating even the clothes on their flesh but loving them! We must never, confuse the sin, for the sinner.

One of these young men is now a friend of mine, and every time I see him we talk about his life and he confides in me. I only pray that I can be a light for him in these last days.

Jude gives us a way to stay pure, to stay in the Spirit and to stay hid in these last days. He says in vs 20 - 21 "But ye, beloved, building up yourselves on your most holy faith, praying in the Holy Ghost, Keep yourselves in the love of God, looking for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ unto eternal life."

Build yourselves up by praying in the Holy Spirit. This is the time to pray in tongues like you never have before. This is the time to engage your spirit in prayer. If you do not pray in tongues, desire to and receive his gift in Jesus Name. Tongues, have a role to play today in prophecy, and that is why the enemy fights the gift of speaking in tongues so much.

My prayer is that you will find your place and stand in it today in prophecy!

He Has a Plan!!

God has a plan! He has a plan! That is one of the most important things we should know. That when he says "go right" he has a plan. He always has a plan, he always knows what he is doing, he always knows where he is going. You can never be lost with God in the lead.

Jer 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future".

I tend to forget that as I am sure you can tell from my earlier blog. But the truth of the matter is, God will never take you anywhere he cannot sustain you, and bring you out VICTORIOUS!!! Sadly though, past experiences may cloud our judgement and put fear in our hearts so that we do not see God but our issues. You may have attempted to lose weight for many years with heartbreaking results, you may have started business after business and each one has failed. Now you are in a place where you have given up on losing weight and on having your own business. Don't let the devil derail you!! God has a plan.

Peter was in the same place you are at in Luke 5. He had just come from the most disappointing fishing trip of his life. He was disillusioned and tired. He just was not having any more of it, at least not that day. So here comes Jesus and he tells him: "Put out into deep water, and let down[b] the nets for a catch." Pete looks at the Lord and says "Master, we've worked hard all night and haven't caught anything. But because you say so, I will let down the nets." He said "Dude!!! I did that already!" Don't you ever feel that way? Like God is telling you something you have done before and failed miserably. You are not even willing to go there anymore. And guess what? He may not even change the method. He may say go back and send that email again. Go back and call that guy again, and say the same thing... again! The whole time you are thinking "the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again hoping for different results!!" But this time it is different. This time the Lord is the one who has given the instruction. This time it is God who has said "Launch into the deep, and let down you net!!!"

I had one of my Pastor's say that the word "Master" in this passage means that Christ was Lord over Peter, Lord over the fish and the sea as well. And he is! So when Jesus gave the command to throw his net back in the water, he also gave the command to that particular school of fish to come into the net!! How about that?!

LOL!!!! When God tells you to go back work on your weight, he has also commanded the extra weight to come off you! When he sends you to do business he has already commanded clients for you who will favor you! Hallelujah! He already has a plan. It is all laid out. There is nothing to fear!

vs 6-7 "When they had done so, they caught such a large number of fish that their nets began to break. So they signaled their partners in the other boat to come and help them, and they came and filled both boats so full that they began to sink." Look at that. They had so much they had to share just to survive, just to get to the shore they had to sow seed into other peoples lives. This is our portion. Our God is an extravagant God! He NEVER does anything on a small scale. If your going to kill someone, it needs to be Goliath. God will bless you so much, that just to make it you will have to give to others!!

So wherever God leads he has already made provision. He has already, made the way. He has already commanded your victory from Zion. We are blessed! So God says this morning:

Isaiah 43:18-19
"Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.

See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the desert
and streams in the wasteland.

Forget the disappointments of the past. Throw in your net but one more time, and see the deliverance of your God!!!

Treating God With Contempt

The definition for the word contempt is as follows:

a) The feeling or attitude of regarding someone or something as inferior, base, or worthless; scorn.
b) The state of being despised or dishonored; disgrace.
c) Open disrespect or willful disobedience of the authority of a court of law or legislative body.

When God showed the promised land to Israel in Numbers 13-14 and they considered their obstacles too great to overcome, God said that they had treated him with contempt.

Numbers 14:11 "The LORD said to Moses, "How long will these people treat me with contempt?..."

When you choose to believe in the ability of your circumstances to eat you up and swallow you whole, you are holding God in Contempt. You are regarding him as inferior in that circumstance and counting him worthless.

Lately God has been leading me into a business venture that I have not been too keen on because I have seen people get swallowed up in doing it. I have been battling this since last week and he just keeps showing me through his word that I can make it if I will only trust in him. I think he finally had it with me this morning and chose to let me know through these two chapters that I will be holding him in contempt by refusing to follow his leading because I am afraid.

Ps 53:5a describes me perfectly "There they were, overwhelmed with dread, where there was nothing to dread..." with God on my side there is nothing to dread. Even with the sons of the Nephilim in the house, huge giants who live in fortified cities. There are spiritual ways to bring them down. Spiritual ways to overcome them. The battle is the Lords!!

Ps 55:3-4 "When I am afraid, I will trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?"

When I come across a great wall, I march around it and shout (Joshua 6) When I come against the Nephilim, I grab my slingshot, go against him in the name of the Lord Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel (1 Samuel 17)

God will make a way. I choose not to hold him in contempt. He will fight my battles as I follow after him. The best way to mitigate risk in business is to listen carefully to the voice of the Lord and to be obedient to that voice.

Season for Singing has come!

Flowers appear on the earth;
the season of singing has come,
the cooing of doves
is heard in our land.
Song of Solomon 2:12

Favor

In this month of Grace and Favor, may the favor of God locate you wherever you are.

Wary of the Supernatural Part II

I hope that you meditated on Friday's post and I also hope that it did not sound too spooky. I promised to tell you today of my other visitation that I had so here goes....

The Lord had made a habit during this time of my life of waking me up in the middle of the night for Bible study which he would conduct himself. I guess my day must have been full of clutter and he sought a quiet time to speak. This particular evening I went to bed at 9pm as usual and fell into a deep sleep. At midnight the Lord woke me up completely alert and asked me to get my Bible, so I did and the lesson started. He taught me on wisdom. I had been praying for divine wisdom ever since I read that wisdom was the principle thing.

Prov 4:7
Wisdom is supreme; therefore get wisdom.
Though it cost all you have, get understanding.

That night God opened up the wisdom passages, their importance and why I should get it. It was a 4 hour lesson. In those days, my mom would get up at 4am to pray. I had just turned off the light to catch another hour of sleep before waking up to get ready for work, when she woke up and went downstairs to pray. I was also praying in my bed, asking God to give me the wisdom I needed to navigate through life when suddenly it felt like I was travelling at very high speed. The only way I can describe it is that I felt like I was in a rocket (I have never been in a rocket, but that is the only way I could explain it in terms of speed) and I was shooting upward. I was awake and it was so real, I could feel the pressure in my head, like I was really travelling.

Then suddenly I was sitting in this chair. Just a simple chair with no arm rests, like a regular dinning room chair. And there was light everywhere, it was bright like day. The chair had been placed on the edge of a cliff with the cliff directly behind me. And God the Father and the Holy Spirit where having this conversation which was filled with joyful laughter. I remember thinking to myself, these guys laugh just as much as me. (I have been accused of being the bubbliest human on the face of the earth. I do enjoy a good giggle). And the Holy Spirit would ask the Father in Swahili "Do I give her?" and he would say "Give her" and he asked again "Do I give her?" and the Lord said in Swahili "Mpe, Wembe, wembe wembe" In my tribal Kikuyu language we say that one is as sharp as a razor when talking about wisdom, and knowledge. The literal interpretation is "Give her a razor, a razor, a razor" I knew exactly what the Lord was saying. Then the Holy Spirit walked up to me and says "Shika" which means "recieve" and lays his right hand on my forehead. As soon as he does that, I fall out under the power of God, and chair falls back over the cliff and I come out of it and I'm in my bed.

I am in awe. Totally aware that I have been in the presence of Almighty God and the Holy Spirit. Totally aware that I have received an impartation of Wisdom. I am amazed, extremely joyful, and I just know I have been with God. So I jump out of my bed and run downstairs and gush everything out to mom. By now my mom had come to believe in visions and dreams so she was very open to my vision. Later on she told me that I must have been in the third heaven.

I was so blown away by that experience. I believe that God wants to be so real to us. He wants us to see him and talk to him like that. One on One. I don't know what you think about that, but it was one reason that made me know for a fact that he is real. That he exists. We can serve God, but with the feeling that he is distant and far removed from our every day lives. It is interesting because when God desires to show himself to us he says "draw near", "come here", "come up higher", "seperate yourself", "consecrate yourself". He is constant, we are the ones who either come nearer or go farther away. My prayer is that you will draw so close to God, that he will indwell you and take you for himself. When you get close enough, he will begin to reveal himself to you. How do we get closer to him, by calling to him, and when we do he promises to show us great and mighty things we know nothing about.

Call to Me and I will answer you and show you great and mighty things, fenced in and hidden, which you do not know (do not distinguish and recognize, have knowledge of and understand).Jer 33:3 AMP

Through the watches of the night

I went to Kesha (Watchnight) last night and it was so cold. I had a jacket on and was still freezing. I was also very tired from waking up early that morning, having a busy day, and now staying up all night, but I was determined to spend time with God through the night watches. In the middle of my prayer time, about 2 am the Lord led me to Psalm 63:

1 O God, You are my God;
Early will I seek You;
My soul thirsts for You;
My flesh longs for You
In a dry and thirsty land
Where there is no water.
2 So I have looked for You in the sanctuary,
To see Your power and Your glory.

3 Because Your lovingkindness is better than life,
My lips shall praise You.
4 Thus I will bless You while I live;
I will lift up my hands in Your name.
5 My soul shall be satisfied as with marrow and fatness,
And my mouth shall praise You with joyful lips.

6 When I remember You on my bed,
I meditate on You in the night watches.
7 Because You have been my help,
Therefore in the shadow of Your wings I will rejoice.
8 My soul follows close behind You;
Your right hand upholds me.

9 But those who seek my life, to destroy it,
Shall go into the lower parts of the earth.
10 They shall fall by the sword;
They shall be a portion for jackals.

11 But the king shall rejoice in God;
Everyone who swears by Him shall glory;
But the mouth of those who speak lies shall be stopped.


And he seemed to say to me "Thank you for coming, regardless of the cold, regardless of how tired you were. You came because you hungered and thirsted for me, to look for me in the Sanctuary. I am a rewarder of those that dilligently seek me, and my word says in Matthew 5:6 'Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, For they shall be filled' therefore your soul shall be satisfied as with marrow and fatness." That brought tears to my eyes. It is not in vain that I leave my warm bed on Friday nights to spend the watches of the night calling to him, seeking his face. There is a reward for he is a rewarder of those that seek him dilligently.

None shall lack her mate!

Here is a beautiful verse that was read by a lady to encourage all the single ladies at the Daughters of Zion meeting at Jubilee Christian Church Ngara, last saturday. Let me also take this opportunity to invite all the ladies out there to attend these phenomenol meetings with Pastor Kathy Kiuna every last saturday of the Month at 1pm prompt. You will absolutely love them!

Isaiah 34:16

“ Search from the book of the LORD, and read:
Not one of these shall fail;
Not one shall lack her mate.
For My mouth has commanded it, and His Spirit has gathered them".

Wary of the Supernatural

I grew up Anglican (Episcopalian in the US) but was acutely aware of the fact that I wasn't feeling the church thing. At first I thought it was because services were boring but it turned out to be more than that. The word and God were just not coming alive for me. I couldn't understand what all the Jesus hype was about. It was sooooooo boring. Amidst the boredom, God still used an Anglican boy at my elementary school when I was in Class 7 to lead me to Christ. However, nothing changed even after this. God was still distant, in outer space somewhere.

When I went to High School (Go Pango!!!), I rededicated my life to Christ just before I turned 15 and then God gave me the best Birthday present ever. Two weeks to my 15th birthday, I was filled with the Holy Ghost with the outer sign of speaking in tongues. Talk about drama!! My life changed! The word came alive, praise and worship ceased to be just singing time, my prayer life deepened and I began to understand what the excitement about Jesus was.

The bible says that once Christ comes into your heart you are a new creation, the old is gone and the new has come, which is completely true in the Spirit.

2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!

However, in the flesh, I needed to be renewed in my mind to live like the new person I had become in Christ.

Rom 12:2a Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.

When I went home for the Christmas Holidays shortly thereafter, I wanted to continue my life as I had lived it at school, so I would lock myself in my room to pray and this time I was praying in tongues as well. That evening, I got the tongue lashing of my life from both my Mom and Dad. Dad was not into any of the God stuff so I could understand him, but mom was saved. What in the world? Turns out her fear was that the devil would deceive me and a spirit other than the Holy Spirit would possess me causing me to speak in tongues. I came to realise thereafter, that there are very many people wary of the supernatural gifts of the Holy Ghost and supernatural manifestations of God for fear of deception from the enemy.

Christians have more faith in the devils ability to deceive them, than in God's ability to preserve them. Yet even at that young age I knew it was the Lord for the Bible says:

Luke 11:13
"If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!"

I studied the word, I studied the Holy Spirit and I studied the gifts of the Holy Spirit and concluded that this was of God and I was going to stick with it. I have been speaking in tongues ever since. Shortly thereafter, since renewing the mind is a process, I found that I was constantly arguing and fighting with my siblings like we had always done. One day my sister threw this one out at me "I thought you got saved" That threw me for a loop. My heart was broken because clearly I was not representing Jesus, and try as much as I did, it didn't look like I was going to make it in salvation.

My dad was in the middle of constructing a rental unit right next to our house, and I loved to go sit on the window sill of one of the bedroom windows and just enjoy the view. That day I went up to my favorite spot a mess, crying my eyes out for the sinner I was and the failure I must have been to Christ. I couldn't even pray. All of a sudden I looked up and here comes Jesus through the door frame into the room where I'm at. The strange thing is, I couldn't see his features so I can't describe his eyes or anything, but I knew it was Jesus and I could see his silhouette, the robe and the shoulder length hair. He came right up to where I was and sat next to me and he asked "Why are you crying?" Isn't that such a God question? Right there with "Adam, where are you" and "Cain where is your brother?" he knows the answer but wants to here it coming from your own mouth.

So I told him all about it. He seemed to draw it out of me. I told him how much I wanted to be the Christian he called me to be, and how sad and disappointed I was in myself for not being that person. And I just cried and cried. And Jesus just sat there and comforted me with an arm around my shoulders and let me know I was on the right track and I shouldn't disqualify myself but keep getting up and walking the walk. Then after I was sufficiently comforted and joy had returned to me, he got up and I watched him walk away. As soon as he went out the door frame, I came out of the trance with a feeling of awe.

I hadn't dreamt it. It was about 3pm, the sun was shining bright. My heart was full to overflowing with joy and awe and I knew that I had been with Jesus. He had come to me.

Bear in mind now, that I am bearly 15 years old and have just been filled with the Holy Spirit and talking in tongues against my parents wishes. I was not trying to go to them and say "Hey, Jesus came to visit me this afternoon and we had a chat" So I kept it all in my heart and cherished these things like Mary must have cherished things about the boy Jesus in her heart.

Over the years, there are many times when I have not behaved like the Christian I ought to be. There are times when I have clearly gone astray. There are times when my heart has broken over my sins and bondage from the enemy, but God has never let me go. There are times when I too have been wary of the supernatural, not trusting God to draw me into his world, and yet God still beckons me. My parents fear of supernatural things led me not to seek them out. But as Todd Bentley puts it God used to visit Adam every day in the garden, since we were redeemed back to Eden we too should receive visitations from God. He visited Abraham all the time and Is 51:1-2 says to look to Abraham, the rock from which we were hewn.

But the Bible clearly states we need to ask to recieve. I believe even supernatural visitations are included. How come others saw angels, and we have not. Some have gone to see heaven and we have not. I know, it sounds totally against everything you have been taught, but could it be that God desires us really truly have access to him even in the supernatural sense. On Monday I will tell you about another supernatural encounter I had that happened in the year 2004. For now ponder on what I have written. Why are we wary of the supernatural? Do you believe that God would like for you to have supernatural encounters with him? And if so, why would he do that?