My 33rd year is going to be a year of Faith and power like never before. This is the word God has given me for this next season of my Life.
35Do not, therefore, fling away your fearless confidence, for it carries a great and glorious compensation of reward.
36For you have need of steadfast patience and endurance, so that you may perform and fully accomplish the will of God, and thus receive and [a]carry away [and enjoy to the full] what is promised.
37For still a little while (a very little while), and the Coming One will come and He will not delay.
38But the just shall live by faith [My righteous servant shall live [b]by his conviction respecting man's relationship to God and divine things, and holy fervor born of faith and conjoined with it]; and if he draws back and shrinks in fear, My soul has no delight or pleasure in him.(B)
39But our way is not that of those who draw back to eternal misery (perdition) and are utterly destroyed, but we are of those who believe [who cleave to and trust in and rely on God through Jesus Christ, the Messiah] and by faith preserve the soul.
Hebrews 11
1NOW FAITH is the assurance (the confirmation, [c]the title deed) of the things [we] hope for, being the proof of things [we] do not see and the conviction of their reality [faith perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses].
2For by [faith--[d]trust and holy fervor born of faith] the men of old had divine testimony borne to them and obtained a good report.
This season is a season of FAITH. It is not a season of shrinking back with fear. It is a season of OBEDIENCE. This is what shall save me and take me to the other side. In line with this word the Lord began speaking to me about the prostitute Rahab in Jericho.
This girl had no idea what the future held for her. She was a sinner through and through and knew it. Like all of Jericho she had heard about the God of Israel and was trembling in fear. When she saw the spies, she could have raised the alarm and said "here are the guys who want to kill us," but instead she hid them and asked them to spare her life and that of her relatives.
She received a set of instructions: Gather your people in your house and keep them here. Then tie this red cord to your window so we can locate you. The truth of the matter is that had she chosen to disobey, she would have died with the rest of the city. Her obedience in faith is what saved her and her family. Hence she is listed in Hebrews 11:31
"[Prompted] by faith Rahab the prostitute was not destroyed along with those who refused to believe and obey, because she had received the spies in peace [without enmity]."
She believed and obeyed and experienced the mercies of the God of Israel. And guess what, she ended up marrying Salmon who was an ancestor of Kind David and of Jesus our Messiah. That is what faith does.
So in this next season, I will keep a fearless confidence in my God. No Shaking!! No Fear!! I will be steadfast in patience and endurance until Christ is formed in me and I fulfill all the will of God for this season. Then and only then can I see the promises of God fulfilled in my life. Just a little while longer and my savior will come with his great reward in his hand.
I must press in by faith for if I do not do so my Master will find no pleasure in me. The just shall live by faith and without it I can never please my God. If I shrink back from what the Lord commands I will not be pleasing to him. No Shaking!! I am not of them that shrink back and are destroyed, I am of them that believe, holding on to faith, and are saved!!
So what was the red cord about? It was a symbol of her faith. It was the covering of the blood of Jesus, which means that we look to Christ and are saved. It was a signal to God and Israel saying here I am. I am counted among the righteous and I am not destroyed. This year there is no shrinking back. There is no fear. No shaking and trembling. This year is about faith in God. Keeping my eyes focused on him and forgetting the elements. This is my season to walk on water. No sinking!! This season my red cord is at the window. This is my season of supernatural encounters, my year to eat the open book, my year to see as He sees, my year to walk in the promises of God. This is my year of divine revelation, a business anointing that you only read about in books, this is the year he sets me apart and works exploits through me.
And you have a front row seat to the movie of my life via this blog. What shall I say unto the Lord? All I have to say is THANK YOU LORD!!!
Friday, September 25, 2009
Thursday, September 24, 2009
My Lost Coin!
THIRTY THREE. That is how old I will be on Sunday. I am not sure I want to be that old just yet. Not that I am against my age, not at all. I think the thirties are awesome and I am having the time of my life. I finally have enough money to do things like go out and have a good time with friends on my birthday without having to ask anyone for it … ya know?!!
But there are things I thought I would have accomplished by now and I still have not seen any sign that God has answered those prayers. Like marriage and a family of my own. Sometimes my heart is very downcast when I contemplate my age, my gynecological history and the lack of a man in my life. I get to the place where I ask like Abraham, "You have given me all these things and all these fabulous promises, but what good is it for my servant Eliezer will inherit it all when I am gone?" (my paraphrase).
I thought I was being ungrateful and silly until I read the story of the lost coin in Luke 15:8-9
"Or suppose a woman has ten silver coins and loses one. Does she not light a lamp, sweep the house and search carefully until she finds it? And when she finds it, she calls her friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost coin.'"
Without a husband and a family in my life I don't feel complete. I have 9 coins and I, like this woman, am frantically searching for my lost coin. I am sweeping and cleaning looking for this lost coin. And when I find it, for I SHALL FIND IT, you all must rejoice with me. Why I'm I so certain of this? Because God exists. He is, and is a rewarder of those that diligently seek him. I know for sure because the Zeal of the Lord shall accomplish it for me. He shall do it. I am so blessed. I love this God so much. I love him to smithereens!!!!
But there are things I thought I would have accomplished by now and I still have not seen any sign that God has answered those prayers. Like marriage and a family of my own. Sometimes my heart is very downcast when I contemplate my age, my gynecological history and the lack of a man in my life. I get to the place where I ask like Abraham, "You have given me all these things and all these fabulous promises, but what good is it for my servant Eliezer will inherit it all when I am gone?" (my paraphrase).
I thought I was being ungrateful and silly until I read the story of the lost coin in Luke 15:8-9
"Or suppose a woman has ten silver coins and loses one. Does she not light a lamp, sweep the house and search carefully until she finds it? And when she finds it, she calls her friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost coin.'"
Without a husband and a family in my life I don't feel complete. I have 9 coins and I, like this woman, am frantically searching for my lost coin. I am sweeping and cleaning looking for this lost coin. And when I find it, for I SHALL FIND IT, you all must rejoice with me. Why I'm I so certain of this? Because God exists. He is, and is a rewarder of those that diligently seek him. I know for sure because the Zeal of the Lord shall accomplish it for me. He shall do it. I am so blessed. I love this God so much. I love him to smithereens!!!!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Temperament
Ok. I was looking up my temperament because I realize I have issues and I am not quite sure why God would make Cholerics. This is sad. The weaknesses are terrible. Did you know that Adolf Hitler was a choleric? I actually have something in common with the man!! How aweful! Check this out. It's taken out of http://temperaments.info/choleric.htm
A person who is choleric in inclusion can become a very strong leader, inspiring large numbers of followers. The are charismatic, charming, inspirational. But beneath the surface, these people see others more a tools, people who can be moved to do what they want them to do. Cholerics will choose to join and head organizations that will support their chosen goals.
Many Cholerics will border on being arrogant, but most appear to be genuine. They tend to be very task oriented, and may be seen as a "Tom Sawyer" with an unpleasant temper. They are fast-paced and demand that things be done correctly and swiftly. "Do It and Do It Now" is their slogan. Procrastination is not a characteristic of a Choleric in inclusion.
A Choleric in Inclusion tends to be seen as open, friendly, confident, outgoing, optimistic, and tough-minded. They typically will exhibit a good mind for envisioning new projects and is an extrovert of a highly selective nature.
On the downside, a Choleric who is not getting his way will often be hot tempered. They will use people to get their way, and can be cruel and angry when frustrated, which can happen easily.
Cholerics tend to dominate conversations. If you find yourself having trouble getting a word in edgewise, you are likely dealing with a Choleric. They will try to be careful not to be rude, but will consistently work at dominating.
A Choleric in Control is typically an excellent leader, capable of quick and accurate decisions based on facts rather than emotions. Capable of carrying considerable responsibility, the people tend to have significant quantities of will-power. The complete the tasks they set out to accomplish.
On the negative side, Cholerics in Control can be angry and cruel. The have been known to be uncaring, abusive and ruthless. A major flaw that appears is the failure to care for the people they are leading, and to look down on those who have less strength of will.
A Choleric in Affection is another of the unusual temperaments. They appear to need a great deal of love and affection, but in reality they don't. Most will not seek out close, personal relationships, and when sought out by another, they may very well decline and walk away. Choleric in Affection people seems to have few emotions with the exception of anger. They see compassion, empathy and deep feelings as unnecessary time-wasters.
Strengths of this temperament include openness, optimism, and an outgoing nature. However, the downside of this temperament can be an angry, rejecting behavior toward others.
The sad part about that report is that it is mostly true. I know how I can be. These weaknesses are terrible and I know my temper can be scary when it shows. Even though it only pops up once in a long time. I submit my temperament under the control of the Holy Ghost. How else can I make it to heaven with such horrid natural tendencies? When it comes to the part about love and devotion not being a huge need to Cholerics, I guess that is true to some extent. I am not needy in that area even though I do long for marriage. For the most part I'm not pining away. I have never been boy crazy and never understood what the fuss was all about.
However, I do want to get married and soon. I keep asking myself the question "why do I want to get married?" and I pull a blank most of the time. I know I want a kids a godly offspring and to set a godly example for my family. I also want a companion in my old age. I know a wife is a helper to her husband and all but is that it. I guess I need to find out more about the purpose of marriage especially for us cholerics. God help me! Life is a maze to me sometimes. That's how I'm feeling about marriage right now. How do I get out of this thing?
A person who is choleric in inclusion can become a very strong leader, inspiring large numbers of followers. The are charismatic, charming, inspirational. But beneath the surface, these people see others more a tools, people who can be moved to do what they want them to do. Cholerics will choose to join and head organizations that will support their chosen goals.
Many Cholerics will border on being arrogant, but most appear to be genuine. They tend to be very task oriented, and may be seen as a "Tom Sawyer" with an unpleasant temper. They are fast-paced and demand that things be done correctly and swiftly. "Do It and Do It Now" is their slogan. Procrastination is not a characteristic of a Choleric in inclusion.
A Choleric in Inclusion tends to be seen as open, friendly, confident, outgoing, optimistic, and tough-minded. They typically will exhibit a good mind for envisioning new projects and is an extrovert of a highly selective nature.
On the downside, a Choleric who is not getting his way will often be hot tempered. They will use people to get their way, and can be cruel and angry when frustrated, which can happen easily.
Cholerics tend to dominate conversations. If you find yourself having trouble getting a word in edgewise, you are likely dealing with a Choleric. They will try to be careful not to be rude, but will consistently work at dominating.
A Choleric in Control is typically an excellent leader, capable of quick and accurate decisions based on facts rather than emotions. Capable of carrying considerable responsibility, the people tend to have significant quantities of will-power. The complete the tasks they set out to accomplish.
On the negative side, Cholerics in Control can be angry and cruel. The have been known to be uncaring, abusive and ruthless. A major flaw that appears is the failure to care for the people they are leading, and to look down on those who have less strength of will.
A Choleric in Affection is another of the unusual temperaments. They appear to need a great deal of love and affection, but in reality they don't. Most will not seek out close, personal relationships, and when sought out by another, they may very well decline and walk away. Choleric in Affection people seems to have few emotions with the exception of anger. They see compassion, empathy and deep feelings as unnecessary time-wasters.
Strengths of this temperament include openness, optimism, and an outgoing nature. However, the downside of this temperament can be an angry, rejecting behavior toward others.
The sad part about that report is that it is mostly true. I know how I can be. These weaknesses are terrible and I know my temper can be scary when it shows. Even though it only pops up once in a long time. I submit my temperament under the control of the Holy Ghost. How else can I make it to heaven with such horrid natural tendencies? When it comes to the part about love and devotion not being a huge need to Cholerics, I guess that is true to some extent. I am not needy in that area even though I do long for marriage. For the most part I'm not pining away. I have never been boy crazy and never understood what the fuss was all about.
However, I do want to get married and soon. I keep asking myself the question "why do I want to get married?" and I pull a blank most of the time. I know I want a kids a godly offspring and to set a godly example for my family. I also want a companion in my old age. I know a wife is a helper to her husband and all but is that it. I guess I need to find out more about the purpose of marriage especially for us cholerics. God help me! Life is a maze to me sometimes. That's how I'm feeling about marriage right now. How do I get out of this thing?
Monday, September 14, 2009
Transition!
There came a time when I lived in the US that life became miserable for me. I hated being there. I was tired of my life and knew that a change had to be made. I had been saved as a young girl and had wonderful communion with the Spirit of God but while in the States, I had lost my fire. Life had just crowded my time with God out. Well, I felt the need for him and began to seek him.
I decided that I would take one of my off days out of the week to fast and pray. I just wanted to spend time with God. Initially, things were kinda quiet and then he came. We began to visit and had a wonderful time together. He began speaking to me about my future and told me that he wanted me to go back home to Kenya. That my blessing was there. I remember that time of transition. It was difficult. I had so many fears. Everyone said that Kenya had gone to the dogs and that I would never get a job if I came back. But God had said 'Go.'
I have never regretted my return or looked back. God has outdone himself in my life. He has met every need and never left me once. When the economy looked horrible he raised my income. With inflation at almost 20% I'm not just keeping my head above water, I'm floating on my back having a great time. God has preserved and kept me.
Now I sense another transition. A different kind of transition. It's not a physical move but a spiritual one. God wants me on a higher plane. Just like before, I am afraid. The voices around me are getting louder every day. Trying to stop me from progressing by showing how I could fail or mess up. But God is able to hold me up. God is able to bring me successfully to the other side. God says "Step out of the boat Cynth! Experience walking on water."
Will I step out of the boat and have the experience of my life, or will I look at the wind and the waves? Is he not able to calm the sea? Peace, be still. Who is like our God? I think I'll throw caution to the wind. I think I will step out. I think I will trust him to keep and preserve me. I think I'll do it. Recklessly abandon myself in the hands of Jesus. I'll transition to my next level and if I perish… I perish.
I decided that I would take one of my off days out of the week to fast and pray. I just wanted to spend time with God. Initially, things were kinda quiet and then he came. We began to visit and had a wonderful time together. He began speaking to me about my future and told me that he wanted me to go back home to Kenya. That my blessing was there. I remember that time of transition. It was difficult. I had so many fears. Everyone said that Kenya had gone to the dogs and that I would never get a job if I came back. But God had said 'Go.'
I have never regretted my return or looked back. God has outdone himself in my life. He has met every need and never left me once. When the economy looked horrible he raised my income. With inflation at almost 20% I'm not just keeping my head above water, I'm floating on my back having a great time. God has preserved and kept me.
Now I sense another transition. A different kind of transition. It's not a physical move but a spiritual one. God wants me on a higher plane. Just like before, I am afraid. The voices around me are getting louder every day. Trying to stop me from progressing by showing how I could fail or mess up. But God is able to hold me up. God is able to bring me successfully to the other side. God says "Step out of the boat Cynth! Experience walking on water."
Will I step out of the boat and have the experience of my life, or will I look at the wind and the waves? Is he not able to calm the sea? Peace, be still. Who is like our God? I think I'll throw caution to the wind. I think I will step out. I think I will trust him to keep and preserve me. I think I'll do it. Recklessly abandon myself in the hands of Jesus. I'll transition to my next level and if I perish… I perish.
Wisdom and the Senses
Wisdom! This is one of the most vital things a Christian can have. But not just any Wisdom, it has to be the wisdom that comes from above. James talks about two kinds of Wisdom: The wisdom from above and demonic wisdom. Of demonic wisdom he says:
James 3:14-15
"But if you have bitter envy and self seeking in your hearts, do not boast and lie against the truth. This wisdom does not descend from above, but is earthly, sensual, demonic."
The word sensual means of the senses. It is wisdom based on what you are seeing, hearing, touching, smelling and tasting. It is based on your deduction of the situation and not on God's view. It is purely humanistic. 1 +1 = 2 and that's just how it is. This is the kind of math that led to Satan's defeat. He thought to himself, "If I can humiliate the son of God, strip him naked in front of God and the world, beat him to within an inch of his life, then hang him on the cross to die, I will have won." And truly, looking at Jesus on the Cross it would seem that the enemy had won. He looked defeated, he was groaning like a defeated man so he sounded defeated, he smelled of blood and sweat, everything said that he was defeated. Earthly, sensual, demonic wisdom.
The wisdom of God on the other hand said that even in death Victory had come. Even in the beating, healing had come. In Christ bearing my sin, righteousness had come. When he died, the devil thought he had won, until the wisdom of God showed up in hell in the form of Jesus, demanding the keys and setting captives free. The wisdom of God goes beyond what you can see. With this wisdom you can read between the lines, you can see behind the scenes. This is the Wisdom that God wants us to have.
"But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality and without hypocrisy."
That word 'pure' means 'without mixture'. Without contamination. It is God's own wisdom not mixed in with demonic, humanistic wisdom. It is a pure wisdom. So the question becomes, what do I do with my senses? I can still hear, see, feel, smell and taste things. What do I do now? Heb 5:14 is the answer:
"But solid food is for the mature, who because of practice have their senses trained to discern good and evil."
Begin to practice discerning by the 5 senses in the spiritual sense. Ask God to cleanse your senses from the earthly, sensual, demonic wisdom they are so used to operating in. Submit your senses to him and you will be surprised at how discernment will begin to come. Walk close to God. Submit your will and mind to him and continually and let him have control of you. With time, your senses will become acute in discernment.
All of a sudden everything will look good but something about the deal will "smell" fishy, or a meeting with a client will leave a bad "taste" in your mouth. You will be praying for someone and have a pain or tingling feeling in a part of your body and God will communicate what the real issue is. Sometimes it will just be a gut feeling, but God will be communicating through discernment, using your senses, what to do next.
May God sanctify my senses. I surrender them wholly to him. I ask Lord that you have your way with me. I give myself to you. Teach me your Wisdom. I love you my Lord and my God.
James 3:14-15
"But if you have bitter envy and self seeking in your hearts, do not boast and lie against the truth. This wisdom does not descend from above, but is earthly, sensual, demonic."
The word sensual means of the senses. It is wisdom based on what you are seeing, hearing, touching, smelling and tasting. It is based on your deduction of the situation and not on God's view. It is purely humanistic. 1 +1 = 2 and that's just how it is. This is the kind of math that led to Satan's defeat. He thought to himself, "If I can humiliate the son of God, strip him naked in front of God and the world, beat him to within an inch of his life, then hang him on the cross to die, I will have won." And truly, looking at Jesus on the Cross it would seem that the enemy had won. He looked defeated, he was groaning like a defeated man so he sounded defeated, he smelled of blood and sweat, everything said that he was defeated. Earthly, sensual, demonic wisdom.
The wisdom of God on the other hand said that even in death Victory had come. Even in the beating, healing had come. In Christ bearing my sin, righteousness had come. When he died, the devil thought he had won, until the wisdom of God showed up in hell in the form of Jesus, demanding the keys and setting captives free. The wisdom of God goes beyond what you can see. With this wisdom you can read between the lines, you can see behind the scenes. This is the Wisdom that God wants us to have.
"But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality and without hypocrisy."
That word 'pure' means 'without mixture'. Without contamination. It is God's own wisdom not mixed in with demonic, humanistic wisdom. It is a pure wisdom. So the question becomes, what do I do with my senses? I can still hear, see, feel, smell and taste things. What do I do now? Heb 5:14 is the answer:
"But solid food is for the mature, who because of practice have their senses trained to discern good and evil."
Begin to practice discerning by the 5 senses in the spiritual sense. Ask God to cleanse your senses from the earthly, sensual, demonic wisdom they are so used to operating in. Submit your senses to him and you will be surprised at how discernment will begin to come. Walk close to God. Submit your will and mind to him and continually and let him have control of you. With time, your senses will become acute in discernment.
All of a sudden everything will look good but something about the deal will "smell" fishy, or a meeting with a client will leave a bad "taste" in your mouth. You will be praying for someone and have a pain or tingling feeling in a part of your body and God will communicate what the real issue is. Sometimes it will just be a gut feeling, but God will be communicating through discernment, using your senses, what to do next.
May God sanctify my senses. I surrender them wholly to him. I ask Lord that you have your way with me. I give myself to you. Teach me your Wisdom. I love you my Lord and my God.
Friday, September 4, 2009
Wow!!
God just connected these two verses for me. I'm so amazingly jazzed.
Joshua 1:8
"Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful"
As you keep God's word on your mind, mouth and actions the results are 3 John 2
"Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth."
You prosper all round. Your soul begins to prosper from the revelations that God downloads, you get material wealth and health as well.
I just never saw that before. So the way to fulfill God's highest wish for man "...I wish above all things..." is to keep his word in your mouth, meditate on it and do it. Are we blessed or what ya'll?!!!!
Joshua 1:8
"Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful"
As you keep God's word on your mind, mouth and actions the results are 3 John 2
"Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth."
You prosper all round. Your soul begins to prosper from the revelations that God downloads, you get material wealth and health as well.
I just never saw that before. So the way to fulfill God's highest wish for man "...I wish above all things..." is to keep his word in your mouth, meditate on it and do it. Are we blessed or what ya'll?!!!!
Reading the Bible through in a year - Update
I am very excited about reading my Bible. I have made much progress and the Bible makes a lot of sense when read in sequence. Who knew?!! Having fully understood what God had told the Israelites in the Torah I now understand why in Judges, Kings and subsequent books he would get so annoyed with them. The book of Job even made real sense to me this time. I understood why Jobs friends had to ask him for forgiveness and why he had to pray for them. It makes sense!!
Okay. Call it tooting my horn but here is a list of the books I have read so far:
Genesis
Exodus
Leviticus
Numbers
Deuteronomy
Joshua
Judges
Ruth
1 Samuel
2 Samuel
1 Kings
2 Kings
1 Chronicles
2 Chronicles
Ezra
Nehemiah
Esther
Job
Psalms
Matthew
Mark
Luke
John
Acts
Romans
1 Corinthians
This Month I am scheduled to read the following:
Ecclesiastes
Song of Songs
Isaiah
2 Corinthians
Galatians
Ephesians
Philippians
I can't wait to begin the major prophets. I know that they will make sense too. I know that God will shed his light on them and I will understand them in a new way. This is tons of fun. I love the one year Bible it has made it so easy to read the word of God. It's downhill from here. 4 months to go and I will have read the whole Bible through in a year! Hallelujah!!
Okay. Call it tooting my horn but here is a list of the books I have read so far:
Genesis
Exodus
Leviticus
Numbers
Deuteronomy
Joshua
Judges
Ruth
1 Samuel
2 Samuel
1 Kings
2 Kings
1 Chronicles
2 Chronicles
Ezra
Nehemiah
Esther
Job
Psalms
Matthew
Mark
Luke
John
Acts
Romans
1 Corinthians
This Month I am scheduled to read the following:
Ecclesiastes
Song of Songs
Isaiah
2 Corinthians
Galatians
Ephesians
Philippians
I can't wait to begin the major prophets. I know that they will make sense too. I know that God will shed his light on them and I will understand them in a new way. This is tons of fun. I love the one year Bible it has made it so easy to read the word of God. It's downhill from here. 4 months to go and I will have read the whole Bible through in a year! Hallelujah!!
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