God Knows My Heart!

Oh Lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me.

You know when I sit or stand.

When far away you know my every thought.

You chart the path ahead of me, and tell me where to stop and rest.

Every moment you know where I am.

You know what I am going to say before I even say it.

You both precede and follow me, and place your hand of blessing on my head.

... I can never be lost to your Spirit! I can never get away from my God!

...You saw me before I was born and scheduled each day of my life before I began to breathe.

Every day was recorded in your book!

How precious it is, Lord, to realize that you are thinking about me constantly!

I can't even count how many times a day your thoughts turn towards me.

And when I waken in the morning, you are still thinking of me!

... Search me, O God, and know my heart; test my thoughts.

Point out anything you find in me that makes you sad,

and lead me along the path of everlasting life.

Psalm 139 (The Living Bible)

So often I forget that you are thinking of me. That my days are all planned out by you Lord. I am not forgotten. You think about me constantly... how you love me, how you want to bless me, what additional good you can bring into my life. You ponder the path of my feet and think about the next step before I even know where I'm at currently. When I go to bed you are thinking about me, and when I wake up your thoughts are still on me. I love you Lord with all my heart. You know this full well.

I submit my life, my will, my all to you once again. Lead me in the way everlasting. Fulfill in my life each day that is written in your book. I want nothing less! Who I'm I that you are mindful of me? That you hear me when I call? It is true that your ear is inclined towards me constantly and you keep me as the apple of your eye. Were the enemy to touch me, you would rise up Oh Lion of Judah and tear him to pieces for me.

Search my heart Oh God and know my thoughts. See the desires of my heart and fulfill them in accordance with your will. Point out those things in my life that make you sad and help me change them. All I want is to bring you honor and glory with all that I am.

Daddy, I never want to bring you shame or to let you down. I want more than anything, to be a daughter you can be proud of. Give me the wisdom I need to navigate this season of my life.

I found it!!

This is what I have been crying out for all morning. I found it!

Ephesians 3:19 Amplified

[That you may really come] to know [practically, through experience for yourselves] the love of Christ, which far surpasses mere knowledge [without experience]; that you may be filled [through all your being] unto all the fullness of God [may have the richest measure of the divine Presence, and become a body wholly filled and flooded with God Himself]!

Fill me with as much you as I can take without exploding Lord. Fill me with the richest measure of you that I was created to carry. I want to be a body wholly filled and flooded with you my God! Do it for me Lord and do not delay!

Fill Me! Possess Me!

I want to be full. Full of your Spirit Lord. So full that he manifests in all that I am and all that pertains to me. So full that my shadow can heal the sick, and my bones, after I am dead and buried can raise the dead. So full, that clothes from my body and handkerchiefs belonging to me can heal the sick. I want to be so full that it is no longer I that live, but you who lives in me. Fill me! Fill me! My heart cries out to you Oh Lord. Fill me to over flowing! Soak me in your river. Dunk me under getting me soaking wet with your Spirit.

Once I saw a girl who was possessed by an evil spirit. She looked at me with a knowing look. I had never seen her or met her before, yet she recognized me or something in me. I remember looking at that girl, she must have been 12-14 years old and thinking to myself that what was looking at me out of her eyes was not her. It was something else. A different spirit.

Lord, if a demon can manifest itself in a girl and look out of her eyes at me, and I know that the world of the enemy copies you, then your Spirit can fill me so much as to possess me. So that he looks through my eyes, he hears with my ears, he feels with my heart, he thinks with my mind, he answers with my tongue, he touches those in the world with my hands. It can be done! I am giving myself to you in whole hearted surrender. Take me! Fill me! Possess me Holy Spirit! Use me! Show me my purpose and walk it out through me.

Isaiah 11

²And the Spirit of the Lord shall rest upon Him--the Spirit of wisdom and understanding, the Spirit of counsel and might, the Spirit of knowledge and of the reverential and obedient fear of the Lord--

³And shall make Him of quick understanding, and His delight shall be in the reverential and obedient fear of the Lord. And He shall not judge by the sight of His eyes, neither decide by the hearing of His ears;

⁴But with righteousness and justice shall He judge the poor and decide with fairness for the meek, the poor, and the downtrodden of the earth; and He shall smite the earth and the oppressor with the rod of His mouth, and with the breath of His lips He shall slay the wicked.

⁵And righteousness shall be the girdle of His waist and faithfulness the girdle of His loins.

I Am Yours!

I am yours Lord. How can I say it enough? How can I show you enough? I am yours spirit, soul and body. Thank you for teaching me about me. About how you made me. So that I can see how I have done things in the past and how I ought to do them now. I am a triune being just like you. Where you are Father, Son and Holy Ghost, I am Spirit, Soul and Body. Made in your image and in your likeness.

My Spirit - The part that communicates with you.

My Body - The part that communicates with this world you have put me in.

My Soul - The true essence of my being.

I am a soul that lives in a body and has a spirit. I am a soul. A soul has a mind and heart. The mind is the seat of my intellect, reasoning, learning etc... My heart is the seat of my emotions. God made me this way because he is the same way. He thinks, he reasons, he is all knowing so I guess he doesn't learn new things. He feels, so he has emotions. He gets angry, he laughs, he weeps... I am made just like him.

The external world is not to dominate my soul so that I am affected by what I see and hear in the natural more than by what I see and hear in the spiritual. I am to be introverted in that I look within for answers. I look within for solutions and for the way in which I should walk. What do I mean within? I mean into my spirit where the Holy Spirit resides and speaks. He should be my source. He should be the final word regardless of what I see and hear on the outside.

Lord, you have said that in these last days you will pour out all your Spirit on your sons and daughters here on the earth. Here I am. I have come. It is written about me in your book. Pour out all your Spirit in me that I may manifest as a son of God on the earth. My heart Lord is that heaven would find expression on the earth through me. Do not delay Lord. You have called me and set me apart and said of me "I have need of you!" Therefore use me now Lord. Do not delay. I have come to answer the call.

You asked, "who shall I send, and who shall go for us" and I have answered "Here I am. Send me."

It is enough! It is enough that you love me. It is enough that you have favored me. It is enough that you have drawn me near and called me your own. It is enough that you have delighted yourself in me and chosen to honor me Lord. My heart is content. Only draw me closer still. Only bring me deeper still. Until the river becomes a flood, water in which I am forced to swim.

Who have I on earth but you? And in heaven, who have I besides you? You are my all in all. You are the apple of my eye. You are the darling of my heart. I love you with all that I am. I bless you. May I always be a delight to you dear Lord. All the days of my existence both here on earth and beyond!